I just realized that I have not written on this blog in like 2 months. Well, sometimes life gets away from us and that is ok. So October was soo busy at work with membership drives and traveling, just crazy busy. November has been a very solemn month for my family. We lost one of our best friends to suicide. THe shock and the pain from it all is just very real. No one saw it coming. No one. Not his closest friends, not his parents. Not anyone who loved him. We got the call on a Monday morning, getting ready for work. It hit us all like a brick. No. This could not be. Why. How...what...no. The next week went by like a blurry slow moving picture. talking to mutual friends, getting together with people, crying with people, trying to be there for our friends and also for each other in the house here. It still hurts every day. We started a page on social media for everyone to be in one place. about 100 people on there now. We started a scholarship fund in his name. We are having a memorial party on January 7th out at his cabin. his father will be there. It will be very hard for some, who have not been up here yet or out to his house. That is what friends are for. To lean on each other.
If you follow this blog, you will know that I have been living up here for about a year and a half now. I have been waiting for 2 years tho....two years for the November gales to blow in. Last year, the winter was so mild and there was some action on the lake but not much. This year, as I went to Wisconsin to help take care of my grandmother, they blew in. The lake awoke and she showed her beautiful angry face. I followed peoples pictures and videos. I missed her even more. Being away from her is something I no longer am ok with. Usually when you leave home, it's no big deal, you will be back. But now, feelings change. There is a such a feeling of peace and tranquility up here that when I leave, a little stress falls on my shoulders. When I can't be up here, when the air doesn't smell the same, when the stars are not as bright, it just isn't ok anymore. Is it wrong to not want to travel or leave home? :-) There may be a little yooper in my heart.
I don't have much to do a song and dance about. I have been waiting for the big beautiful snow that coveres the pine trees and the ice that makes beautiful sculptures on the trees but it has not come yet. It is November 29th - the END of November and there is no snow on the ground. I am not sure I realy like this. Rain. Ugh.
Holidays are coming up. If you have not had the chance, talk a walk in the evening in downtown Marquette, when the stores are still open and the lights are all lit up on the trees. It is a perfect place for date night, hand in hand, kissing under a lit up tree. Stopping in here for a cider, checking out the lake, stopping in there to smell the smells. Just sayin. It's beautiful. When it isn't raining....
That's all for now. I will be searching for winter until next time. It's either not coming, or it will come in when none of us are looking. When we expect it to be another calm and just kinda chilly day. It will cover us like a big wool blanket, heavy and dark. Smothering. It will freeze our fingertips and our noses. It will cause people to cheer and rejoice so they can ski and snow mobile and make a snowman. It will cause drivers to stress, and slide and hope they don't hit anyone. Get out your Yooper Scoopers (Santa needs to bring one to our house for Christmas), your Chooks, your STormy Kromers and whatnot. Get up a little earlier. Open your eyes in the snow when you look at the sky, it's quite pretty....when you find it.
~Waiting on Winter.... ~S
